On the surfboard

The changes, I was waiting for, have already started.
My sensations were right. Changes are around, but I didn't expect everything started so soon.
Yesterday I talked with a very special person for me, and we talked for hours. It was an intense and rich conversation where we were completely sincere with eachother.
We talked about our past and stormy relation in a very civilized way and we finally knew what we really thought when we broke. Now, it was the moment, when the feelings were not that strong anymore.
And his words shocked me a little, specially when he said he hadn't been able to love me the way I loved him. He said he loved my way to love, and he felt he never would have reached the same level.
"You gave me everything, the whole of you was in our relation, your way to love is so perfect and beautiful..., but I would never be able to love this way. I think I was not prepared for such responsibilities or to give everything you deserved from a man or from me. I saw you gave me your 100% and I was just at a 60%, now I know it. Time helped me to see it. Am sorry, you deserved a better relation, maybe a better man."
I was on silence for a while, trying to understand everything he said, with my eyes and ears wide open. Was it happening again? Should I think he was a coward or a brave man for telling me his truth? I didn't know what to think.
The same situation, different person. Another one telling me he couldn' t go further but this time because of different reasons, but maybe similar in essence.
I could think maybe it's my fault, but why then they say it' s not? why do they say my way to love is so beautiful? It' s just like a consolation prize, just because I become the loser?
I felt slightly lost in my own living room, he saw it in my eyes, and he smiled.
"We as lovers are part of the past, let's be part of the present as good friends. I still love you, but I understand it's not the moment for us, or maybe we are not for eachother. Let's be good friends. Let's finish our story. Let's close a book"
The last sentence rang a bell on my mind and I reacted with a smile. Of course I agreed.
The wave of the expected change was in front of me.
Time to close past books.
Changes are not coming anymore, they are here, happening now.

Am on the surfboard, trying to get ready, waiting for...
At the top of the wave.